kaiserkuchen | Consider this a GIP, as well! (Reply)

Another GPOYYYYYY of GPOYs, oh internet how you always have a picture that sums up my lousy state of RL affairs!

Although I guess this is not wholly accurate, as I experienced somewhat of a late-night burst of energy (the only kind I get, these days) and sent off three additional job applications and am correcting more bits of dear

cheshire_tabby's paper.

It still doesn't change the fact that most of the time, when I wind down from the excitement of getting to meet my friends or go for meals with them, I am starting to get more intense flashes of being pretty dejected about my lack of job-search success so far. It's a useless feeling, and I should be using this free time to at least be productive otherwise and tackle the multitude of little things I could be doing around the house, in my room or even just sorting crap out on my computer, if I don't feel like actively creating anything myself but ugh. SULKING IT IS, 95% OF THE TIME THEN! *proceeds to be a lump on the couch*.

I think it's the whole lack of any form of response to the job apps that is most depressing-- you feel like you're lobbing crap into a void, after a while. It's also just weird to me because I am then wondering if I'm explicitly yet inadvertantly doing Something Wrong in my apps, as for all intents and purposes I should be having an okay time in the job market. I'm a strong candidate on paper-- I have an overseas degree yet have local roots, I studied the correct thing for the specific jobs I'm applying for and have relevant internships, I have the language skills and yet would save any company work permit/visa fees if they were to hire a foreigner in my stead and have been steadily not mentioning the salary issue which means that I would be open to being underpaid. But still, NO DICE. I haven't even been THAT picky in where I apply to, though I do admit to eagle-eying location, if the advert is worded like crap and most importantly, if the company provides a hotmail/gmail/yahoo.com contact adress, because REALLY PEOPLE? That's just sad.

But off to finish Olga's paper and get ready for an early start tomorrow-- back to GYM again, as I shamefully skipped on Monday, and I might have a lunch and dinner date each with two of Ma's ex-colleagues/friends who both may be able to help me with getting a foot in their companies. Actually getting these meetings planned was quite nerve-wracking, as I was complaining about on twitter but THINGS KIND OF WORKED OUT IN THE END gahhhh phewww! FINGERS CROSSED