Consider this a GIP, as well!

[kaiserkuchen]

Another GPOYYYYYY of GPOYs, oh internet how you always have a picture that sums up my lousy state of RL affairs!

Although I guess this is not wholly accurate, as I experienced somewhat of a late-night burst of energy (the only kind I get, these days) and sent off three additional job applications and am correcting more bits of dear cheshire_tabby's paper.

It still doesn't change the fact that most of the time, when I wind down from the excitement of getting to meet my friends or go for meals with them, I am starting to get more intense flashes of being pretty dejected about my lack of job-search success so far. It's a useless feeling, and I should be using this free time to at least be productive otherwise and tackle the multitude of little things I could be doing around the house, in my room or even just sorting crap out on my computer, if I don't feel like actively creating anything myself but ugh. SULKING IT IS, 95% OF THE TIME THEN! *proceeds to be a lump on the couch*.

I think it's the whole lack of any form of response to the job apps that is most depressing-- you feel like you're lobbing crap into a void, after a while. It's also just weird to me because I am then wondering if I'm explicitly yet inadvertantly doing Something Wrong in my apps, as for all intents and purposes I should be having an okay time in the job market. I'm a strong candidate on paper-- I have an overseas degree yet have local roots, I studied the correct thing for the specific jobs I'm applying for and have relevant internships, I have the language skills and yet would save any company work permit/visa fees if they were to hire a foreigner in my stead and have been steadily not mentioning the salary issue which means that I would be open to being underpaid. But still, NO DICE. I haven't even been THAT picky in where I apply to, though I do admit to eagle-eying location, if the advert is worded like crap and most importantly, if the company provides a hotmail/gmail/yahoo.com contact adress, because REALLY PEOPLE? That's just sad.

But off to finish Olga's paper and get ready for an early start tomorrow-- back to GYM again, as I shamefully skipped on Monday, and I might have a lunch and dinner date each with two of Ma's ex-colleagues/friends who both may be able to help me with getting a foot in their companies. Actually getting these meetings planned was quite nerve-wracking, as I was complaining about on twitter but THINGS KIND OF WORKED OUT IN THE END gahhhh phewww! FINGERS CROSSED

Comments

[ninchu.livejournal.com]

I hope the carrier pigeons are just really slow and that you'll get many replies from the companies you applied to soon! Because, as you describe it, it's really strange if no one sees what an assett you are in the workforce. Best of luck!

[laliandra.livejournal.com]

YAY SULKING.

You are so fabulous, darling, I have no idea what's going on there. And I know that it sucks, treasure, and I am here for ranting at the world anytime you like.

[laulan.livejournal.com]

Oh honey. :( I seriously have no idea why places aren't jumping ALL over you. You're intelligent, articulate, knowledgable, personable, and excellent at working in high-stress situations with unreasonable people... pretty much the ideal candidate for anything marketing-related. *SHAKES FISTS AT WORLD AT LARGE* The email you're using isn't rerouting everything to spam, right?!

I really hope someone wises up to what a gem you are ASAP. In the meantime, try not to let it get you down as much as possible--I know how hopeless and drudgy it feels, but you really are amazing, and it's absolutely no reflection on that. *hugs tight* And good luck with your contacts!!!

[radiophile.livejournal.com]

Augh I do not envy you bb :'( I've been slacking and not looking for a new job like I should be, but it's def frustrating when you hear NOTHING back from anyone :( You are totally qualified, and idk why you're not getting callbacks but I will keep my fingers crossed for you!!! ♥

[cheshire-tabby.livejournal.com]

awwww! this is what all of summer felt like to me. at least a little bit.
but I am sure you will manage to work something out, I believe in you. <33!

other than that: YOU ARE MY SAVIOUR ANGEL KNIGHT or something. seriously, I would never manage to write my thesis without knowing you are there, cheering me on. ;-; thank you so much.

[branquignole.livejournal.com]

Maybe they are just scared of how perfect you are, thinking to themselves, NO WE CANNOT HIRE HER SHE IS JUST GOING TO TAKE OVER THE PLACE. ... yes, that's probably it!

Anyway, I hope you hear back from them soon. <3