Consider this a GIP, as well!
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Although I guess this is not wholly accurate, as I experienced somewhat of a late-night burst of energy (the only kind I get, these days) and sent off three additional job applications and am correcting more bits of dear
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It still doesn't change the fact that most of the time, when I wind down from the excitement of getting to meet my friends or go for meals with them, I am starting to get more intense flashes of being pretty dejected about my lack of job-search success so far. It's a useless feeling, and I should be using this free time to at least be productive otherwise and tackle the multitude of little things I could be doing around the house, in my room or even just sorting crap out on my computer, if I don't feel like actively creating anything myself but ugh. SULKING IT IS, 95% OF THE TIME THEN! *proceeds to be a lump on the couch*.
I think it's the whole lack of any form of response to the job apps that is most depressing-- you feel like you're lobbing crap into a void, after a while. It's also just weird to me because I am then wondering if I'm explicitly yet inadvertantly doing Something Wrong in my apps, as for all intents and purposes I should be having an okay time in the job market. I'm a strong candidate on paper-- I have an overseas degree yet have local roots, I studied the correct thing for the specific jobs I'm applying for and have relevant internships, I have the language skills and yet would save any company work permit/visa fees if they were to hire a foreigner in my stead and have been steadily not mentioning the salary issue which means that I would be open to being underpaid. But still, NO DICE. I haven't even been THAT picky in where I apply to, though I do admit to eagle-eying location, if the advert is worded like crap and most importantly, if the company provides a hotmail/gmail/yahoo.com contact adress, because REALLY PEOPLE? That's just sad.
But off to finish Olga's paper and get ready for an early start tomorrow-- back to GYM again, as I shamefully skipped on Monday, and I might have a lunch and dinner date each with two of Ma's ex-colleagues/friends who both may be able to help me with getting a foot in their companies. Actually getting these meetings planned was quite nerve-wracking, as I was complaining about on twitter but THINGS KIND OF WORKED OUT IN THE END gahhhh phewww! FINGERS CROSSED
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Date: 2011-09-06 08:42 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2011-09-06 10:40 pm (UTC)You are so fabulous, darling, I have no idea what's going on there. And I know that it sucks, treasure, and I am here for ranting at the world anytime you like.
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Date: 2011-09-07 12:51 am (UTC)I really hope someone wises up to what a gem you are ASAP. In the meantime, try not to let it get you down as much as possible--I know how hopeless and drudgy it feels, but you really are amazing, and it's absolutely no reflection on that. *hugs tight* And good luck with your contacts!!!
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Date: 2011-09-07 04:17 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2011-09-07 05:50 am (UTC)but I am sure you will manage to work something out, I believe in you. <33!
other than that: YOU ARE MY SAVIOUR ANGEL KNIGHT or something. seriously, I would never manage to write my thesis without knowing you are there, cheering me on. ;-; thank you so much.
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Date: 2011-09-07 08:16 am (UTC)Anyway, I hope you hear back from them soon. <3