Heartening news?!

[kaiserkuchen]

I SHOULD BE USING THIS AS MOTIVATION TO STUDY MOOOAR, but it is still light out and I am still headachy, so distraction per LJ first it is! Basically, I found out two days ago that the fact that I resigned myself to only being finished with university/my Bachelors Degree by next December could actually not be necessarily true. I could be done by next summer! We need a combination of 60 SWS (weekly semester hours) of Publizistik main subject classes and 30 SWS of our various electives to complete this major, and lo and behold I actually have 28 SWS for the electives already. So if I actually pass Personal + Organisation this semester (...even if that is very unlikely baaw), I would actually have 1/3 of my major all wrapped up, and if I put some back into taking as many exams for next semester now or in January as possible and pass everything now, the chance of me getting done in the projected 'normal' 6 semesters is actually doable! I have 26 SWS for PKW right now, but if I pass everything I will get an additional 18 SWS and start the summer semester with 46 SWS and asjhfas the math looks possible! I mean, I will probably hate myself and die from the stress, but it is a very warming and reassuring thought that I could do it! I can still 'take my time' and be done by December (as predicted to the parental units), but I could also see if I can try to get my shit together. AHH. AND THEN A SIX MONTH (PAID??) INTERNSHIP IN SINGAPORE OR SOMETHING WITH CARMEN before getting back to the drudgery of doing a Master's somewhere here. Good that would be awesome. Even better would be somewhere in the Staaaaaaates (Patty!), but even my dreams get cockblocked by the fact that I know that shit would be too expensive ;((

BACK TO TRYING TO STUDY. AFTER I REREAD SOME HIKAGO FIC. OH SELF WHY CAN YOU NEVER GET YOUR ACT TOGETHERRRR >_>;;

Comments

[cheshire-tabby.livejournal.com]

I think I will do a double-master.
I think.... but I am not sure.
what I actually would like to do is throw it all away, pack my stuff, move to new york and get a job at DC comics (even if its only secretary or coffee person or whatever).
or simply move to india and get over my life. turn into a voodoo zombie.
or another option would be to move somewhere comletely different and start working.
wow. I don't know what to do...

[kaiserkuchen.livejournal.com]

Fuck man, I know what you meannnnn. It's like ever since I took the internship, it was like the final nail in the coffin of 'Hey self, remember how you never really like studying and uni all that much in the first place? LOOK AT HOW MUCH FUN ACTUALLY WORKING AND (theoretically) EARNING MONEY IS! Oh what's that? You still have a year of uni to go? AHAHAH HAVE FUN WITH THAT, SUCKER' and the fact that holy shiiiit there are such high standards with regards to EVERYTHING when you're in uni, but the bitter truth is that in the Arbeitsalltag, there are such enormous fucktards out there and you know you could do better and jsfajf gaah so frustrating!

I WANT TO SEE THE WORLDDDDDDDD. But if you wanna be a voodoo zombie, than Haiti should be the place for you moar than India, methinks! Isn't that were the actual recorded case of zombieism was? That's what cracked.com was telling me once at 2AM iirc!

*HUGSSSSSSS*

[cheshire-tabby.livejournal.com]

yeah well I don't know about the working part, I am just scared of you know... stopping to learn, because that's about the only thing I'm good at. maybe I should really become part of the university staff or something like that.
D:

BRAVE NEW WORLD!
I am scared.