M for M-m-mood swings?

This would've been a super cranky entry full of whining and general feelings of ~unease BUT I got to skype/call my parents earlier and perhaps most importantly talk to ♥CARMEN♥ after nearly a week and a half so now I am actually in a good mood again. It was great catching up and our moods continue to magically synchronize. We are apparently both in the throes of this weird wishy-washy and niggling feeling you get when you're not exactly "content" or happy with the general direction your life is taking, and not quite sure what to do about it. Well okay, in my case I am just in front of a large and blinking question mark and I am mostly psyching myself out with thinking up negative scenarios and also experiencing the usual YAY LET'S SEE PEOPLE and NO IMMA BE A SHUT-IN simultaneous social activity dichotomy that I sometimes go through. And I kind of am balking at the amount of packing I still have to do in these two weeks. TL;DR CONCLUSION: TIME TO SACK THE FUCK UP, SELF *rinse, repeat*
[EDIT] hah I got over myself and am meeting Daniela, then Wido on Monday and nebst(♥!) for the first time on Tuesday. YAYYYYY <33

BUT TO GET BACK TO MORE FANDOM-Y things, have caught up with SPN and TVD! Ahhh, and both episodes that make me ever so antsy for it to be next week already~

SPN:
"They're Calling My Name" by secretlytodream is short but packs an epically creepy punch. The way the already quite unsettling song fits together with the editing and the coloring choices and ahhh fuck THAT ENDING. THIS VID AHHHHHH.

Supernatural S5x16
( HEAVEEEEEEEN IS A PLACE ON EAAAAAAAAAAARTH )

Supernatural S5x17
( I have had an earworm from this song the whole day already )

TVD:
The Vampire Diaries S1x17
( Gosh this show is so addicting )

STAR TREK:
One of my greatest cliche loves is the genderswap trope, and to a large extent because I admit that I am fascinated by the thoughts behind visually adapting a current character's look/design and what their clothing/hair/body would translate to in the opposite sex. Obviously I expect that there should also be a bit more thought put into it if say, one were to write a genderswap fic, because man I think everyone has read one of these really simplistic and veering into insensitive and insulting depictions of "girliness"/"manliness"-- but just purely speaking on a shallow and pictorial level? THIS and HIGHSCHOOL/UNI!AUs are like my favorite things ever <33

Which is basically a long intro into the fact that oxboxer has made some brilliant ST genderswaps that are full of personality, with the added bonus of being ~fashionable ones that use actual clothes assembled together from Polyvore as a reference. SO GREATTTTT AHHH I LOVE EACH AND EVERY ONE.
The DUDES (Girl!Spock is perfection and I want her outfit, and okay that is a statement that can be taken as a blanket one... though perhaps not Kirk's. Even if it is SUCH AN INSPIRED CHOICE ahhhhh ♥) and the LADIES (DAAAMN Male!Uhura is hot~ and the reference for GUYLA is hilari-awesome)