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kaiserkuchenBecause you all would have otherwise been treated to an extended version of this already long venting and pity-party session about my day(s). The main gist of the matter basically is that hormones make everything worse, as this sampling of my thought processes today might show:
Kaz!BRAIN: Hmmm, doing this internet research + PPP for this one topic is harder and more time intensive than I expected! I don't think I can complete it 100%, I hope the P's will be okay with what I do have! And the bunch of other things I did that they didn't want but I thought they did and already spent half a day working on it anyways! Ha-ha, oh I really need to stop doing this...
Kaz!HORMONES: BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW WHY AM I SO SLOW BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW WHY IS THE PPP CONTENT NOT PROPORTIONAL TO THE AMOUNT OF TIME I SPENT PORING THROUGH UNIVERSITY RANKINGS OF CONTINENTAL EUROPE?? BAWWW THIS WAS ALL A WASTE OF TIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIME WHY DO I KEEP DOING THE WRONG THINGSSSSSSSS
!BRAIN: Wow, self, are you ever regretting spending last week procrastinating on the Competitive comparison! The P' is very chill, true, and he didn't specifically say when he needs it dude, but you've had it for two and a half weeks now! And barely 4 of at least 24++ done and no real time to do it. Not good!
!HORMONES: BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW I AM A FAILURE BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWW WHY DO I KEEP DOING THESE THINGS BAWWWWWWWWWW SERIOUSLY WHY WAS I SO LAZY LAST WEEK
!BRAIN: Hmm! So now you know, self, that once this P' gives you work to do, you drop everything else and fucking start it, because she LIES about how long it will take to do, and you know you are a slow worker, and you know you can't leave the office before it is at least 90% done and really, she hasn't explicitly given you shit yet, so why worry or take snappish tones personally? YOU ARE OVERREACTING.
!HORMONES: BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW OH MY GOD WHAT AM I DOING HERE BAWWWWW WHY DO I TAKE SO LONG TO GET THINGS DONE I CUT MY LUNCH SHORT FOR FUCKS SAKE BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWW I BET SHE WILL CHEW ME OUT TOMORROW BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW WHAT IF I DO SOMETHING WRONG BAWWWWW
!BRAIN: So you had a crap day, self! You are on the walk-part of your commute, sweaty, disgruntled, tired and hungry. Do you think that calling your mother to complain, starting off in a five minute monologue would be a smart idea? Did you really expect to pull something like this on a parent and NOT get the "well just fucking sack up, this is how the real work life is" speech that even the whining part of you knows is correct? Oh-- you didn't. And oh, hell no you didn't just get in a snit and be a little bitch to your mom. You did. Ahh self, you jackass.
!HORMONES: BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW WHY IS EVERYONE SO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAN TO MEEEEEE BAWWWWWWWWWWWWW
also I had no time to do my PR UE that I am supposed to hand in by July. Which is ending soon. WHOOPS AGAIN I WAS LAZY and then waaaaaaaaay over-estimated the amount of time I had left. STORY OF MY FUCKING LIFE.
AAAAAAAAAAAANYWAYS, to bring this away from the all-internship whining, all the time (I truly am happy I am getting to experience this, no matter how much it might seem otherwise. I AM LEARNING. I might not be happy that I am being exposed to the glaring deficits in my work skills/traits, but whatever.) --- THE COMIC-CON TRAILER FOR DEXTER SEASON 4!!!!!! SO FUCKING EXCITED, OMG. This, Glee and Supernatural are pretty much gonna rock my Fall program watching worlddddd~~
Kaz!BRAIN: Hmmm, doing this internet research + PPP for this one topic is harder and more time intensive than I expected! I don't think I can complete it 100%, I hope the P's will be okay with what I do have! And the bunch of other things I did that they didn't want but I thought they did and already spent half a day working on it anyways! Ha-ha, oh I really need to stop doing this...
Kaz!HORMONES: BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW WHY AM I SO SLOW BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW WHY IS THE PPP CONTENT NOT PROPORTIONAL TO THE AMOUNT OF TIME I SPENT PORING THROUGH UNIVERSITY RANKINGS OF CONTINENTAL EUROPE?? BAWWW THIS WAS ALL A WASTE OF TIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIME WHY DO I KEEP DOING THE WRONG THINGSSSSSSSS
!BRAIN: Wow, self, are you ever regretting spending last week procrastinating on the Competitive comparison! The P' is very chill, true, and he didn't specifically say when he needs it dude, but you've had it for two and a half weeks now! And barely 4 of at least 24++ done and no real time to do it. Not good!
!HORMONES: BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW I AM A FAILURE BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWW WHY DO I KEEP DOING THESE THINGS BAWWWWWWWWWW SERIOUSLY WHY WAS I SO LAZY LAST WEEK
!BRAIN: Hmm! So now you know, self, that once this P' gives you work to do, you drop everything else and fucking start it, because she LIES about how long it will take to do, and you know you are a slow worker, and you know you can't leave the office before it is at least 90% done and really, she hasn't explicitly given you shit yet, so why worry or take snappish tones personally? YOU ARE OVERREACTING.
!HORMONES: BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW OH MY GOD WHAT AM I DOING HERE BAWWWWW WHY DO I TAKE SO LONG TO GET THINGS DONE I CUT MY LUNCH SHORT FOR FUCKS SAKE BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWW I BET SHE WILL CHEW ME OUT TOMORROW BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW WHAT IF I DO SOMETHING WRONG BAWWWWW
!BRAIN: So you had a crap day, self! You are on the walk-part of your commute, sweaty, disgruntled, tired and hungry. Do you think that calling your mother to complain, starting off in a five minute monologue would be a smart idea? Did you really expect to pull something like this on a parent and NOT get the "well just fucking sack up, this is how the real work life is" speech that even the whining part of you knows is correct? Oh-- you didn't. And oh, hell no you didn't just get in a snit and be a little bitch to your mom. You did. Ahh self, you jackass.
!HORMONES: BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW WHY IS EVERYONE SO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAN TO MEEEEEE BAWWWWWWWWWWWWW
also I had no time to do my PR UE that I am supposed to hand in by July. Which is ending soon. WHOOPS AGAIN I WAS LAZY and then waaaaaaaaay over-estimated the amount of time I had left. STORY OF MY FUCKING LIFE.
AAAAAAAAAAAANYWAYS, to bring this away from the all-internship whining, all the time (I truly am happy I am getting to experience this, no matter how much it might seem otherwise. I AM LEARNING. I might not be happy that I am being exposed to the glaring deficits in my work skills/traits, but whatever.) --- THE COMIC-CON TRAILER FOR DEXTER SEASON 4!!!!!! SO FUCKING EXCITED, OMG. This, Glee and Supernatural are pretty much gonna rock my Fall program watching worlddddd~~
