Sometimes being lazy can be helpful, I guess!

[kaiserkuchen]

Because you all would have otherwise been treated to an extended version of this already long venting and pity-party session about my day(s). The main gist of the matter basically is that hormones make everything worse, as this sampling of my thought processes today might show:


Kaz!BRAIN: Hmmm, doing this internet research + PPP for this one topic is harder and more time intensive than I expected! I don't think I can complete it 100%, I hope the P's will be okay with what I do have! And the bunch of other things I did that they didn't want but I thought they did and already spent half a day working on it anyways! Ha-ha, oh I really need to stop doing this...
Kaz!HORMONES: BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW WHY AM I SO SLOW BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW WHY IS THE PPP CONTENT NOT PROPORTIONAL TO THE AMOUNT OF TIME I SPENT PORING THROUGH UNIVERSITY RANKINGS OF CONTINENTAL EUROPE?? BAWWW THIS WAS ALL A WASTE OF TIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIME WHY DO I KEEP DOING THE WRONG THINGSSSSSSSS

!BRAIN: Wow, self, are you ever regretting spending last week procrastinating on the Competitive comparison! The P' is very chill, true, and he didn't specifically say when he needs it dude, but you've had it for two and a half weeks now! And barely 4 of at least 24++ done and no real time to do it. Not good!
!HORMONES: BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW I AM A FAILURE BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWW WHY DO I KEEP DOING THESE THINGS BAWWWWWWWWWW SERIOUSLY WHY WAS I SO LAZY LAST WEEK

!BRAIN: Hmm! So now you know, self, that once this P' gives you work to do, you drop everything else and fucking start it, because she LIES about how long it will take to do, and you know you are a slow worker, and you know you can't leave the office before it is at least 90% done and really, she hasn't explicitly given you shit yet, so why worry or take snappish tones personally? YOU ARE OVERREACTING.
!HORMONES: BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW OH MY GOD WHAT AM I DOING HERE BAWWWWW WHY DO I TAKE SO LONG TO GET THINGS DONE I CUT MY LUNCH SHORT FOR FUCKS SAKE BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAWWWWW I BET SHE WILL CHEW ME OUT TOMORROW BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW WHAT IF I DO SOMETHING WRONG BAWWWWW

!BRAIN: So you had a crap day, self! You are on the walk-part of your commute, sweaty, disgruntled, tired and hungry. Do you think that calling your mother to complain, starting off in a five minute monologue would be a smart idea? Did you really expect to pull something like this on a parent and NOT get the "well just fucking sack up, this is how the real work life is" speech that even the whining part of you knows is correct? Oh-- you didn't. And oh, hell no you didn't just get in a snit and be a little bitch to your mom. You did. Ahh self, you jackass.
!HORMONES: BAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW WHY IS EVERYONE SO MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAN TO MEEEEEE BAWWWWWWWWWWWWW

also I had no time to do my PR UE that I am supposed to hand in by July. Which is ending soon. WHOOPS AGAIN I WAS LAZY and then waaaaaaaaay over-estimated the amount of time I had left. STORY OF MY FUCKING LIFE.


AAAAAAAAAAAANYWAYS, to bring this away from the all-internship whining, all the time (I truly am happy I am getting to experience this, no matter how much it might seem otherwise. I AM LEARNING. I might not be happy that I am being exposed to the glaring deficits in my work skills/traits, but whatever.) --- THE COMIC-CON TRAILER FOR DEXTER SEASON 4!!!!!! SO FUCKING EXCITED, OMG. This, Glee and Supernatural are pretty much gonna rock my Fall program watching worlddddd~~

Comments

[jorajo.livejournal.com]

IIIII
LLLLOOOOVVVVEEEE
YYYYOOOOUUUUU

AND GOD, THOSE CONVERSATIONS ARE LIKE THE ONES I HAVE WITH MYSELF EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.

[kaiserkuchen.livejournal.com]

OBVIOUSLY THIS IS A LATE REPLY BUT YOU DO NOT BELIEVE HOW MUCH YOU GUYS CHEERED ME UP NAWWWW I HAVE THE MOST AWESOMEST FRIENDSSSSSSSS

DARLING :( HAVE SOME HAPPY HEARTS OF MY LOVE

[omnipresentdmat.livejournal.com]

♥♥♥♥♥

I CLUTCHED THEM TO MY BOSOM, GRATEFULLY

[kaiserkuchen.livejournal.com]

AHHHHH HAPPY ARASHI RAYS OF HAPPINESSSSSSS

[cheshire-tabby.livejournal.com]

DDDD:
boy, you are awesome no matter what you do. just don't worry.
i know it's stupid to tell you this but you know what helped me out of my personal depression? I reorganized my entire flat, and started shifting the furnitre about. it looks worse now, but I feel better. XD

[kaiserkuchen.livejournal.com]

!! So your flat looks different AGAIN?? Man, it is always an adventure of sorts, coming to visit you ooooh keeping your guests on their toes, I see what you are going for here ;DD I keep meaning to sort out my room here lol I am still just dumping shit in my luggage. Ooops.

[quirkytaverna.livejournal.com]

At least - trust me, this is a bright side - you're aware that there's a hormone/mental split, and you know why it's happening. ♥ Which is something!

I hope it gets better soon.

[kaiserkuchen.livejournal.com]

SUPERMAN!ICON~~ And yeah, in retrospect that truly was a beautiful example of how hormones can screw you over in the head, aughhh what was wrong with me :/ But! It's all good again now, and the following days were actually quite okay, lol sometimes one needs object lessons is DON'T OVERREACT, GODDAMN I guess...

<333

[quirkytaverna.livejournal.com]

*is a comics geek* :)

I'm glad things are running smoother! DON'T OVERREACT, GODDAMN sounds like a life motto in the making!

<3!

[nebst.livejournal.com]

I hate it when that happens. D: Stupid hormones. (But at least that means it'll pass again! Soonish!)

[kaiserkuchen.livejournal.com]

Nächsten Monat wird mit viel Süßkram vorgesorgt lol I will sugarify my Stimmungsschwankungen into submission!!1

Ahhh wieso sind Hormone bloss manchmal so assig, achhh.

[laulan.livejournal.com]

Awwwww bb. I've been there. *big hug* Drink lots of tea and take care of yourself.

[kaiserkuchen.livejournal.com]

It was almost as if to really rub in my face that I was having a case of the crazies on Wednesday-- the following days were still busy, but totally manageable. I GET IT WORLD, LESSON LEARNED ABOUT DIALING DOWN THE 'OMG EVERYTHING WILL FAIL AND CRASH AND BURNNNN'-ness XDD

♥ ♥

[laulan.livejournal.com]

Ahaha, I think maybe I beat you today. I cried in my boss's office. \o/ I'm glad YOUR world has fixed itself though! ♥

[laliandra.livejournal.com]

OMG GLEEEEEEEEE! I am excited for it, can you tell?

Also, I am so sorry that you are stressed, my poor kazamataz! You are AWESOMESAUCE and SHALL OVERCOME!

For your amusement, here is my feeble attempt at reading aloud. It was fun, but I do not do voices or anything as cool as Mlle Colline, sadly. But I sing!

http://www.mediafire.com/?bcfjed2mgno

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[kaiserkuchen.livejournal.com]

YESS GLEE I admit, I find whatshisface the jock one quite adorable. His singing voice still has to grow on me, but the rest? Niiiiiiiiiiiiice.

I don't want to jinx myself, but I think I can manage this week!!1 What I'm doing atm is nothing new, just extra boring/hard AHHHH I DO NOT KNOW ALL THE FANCY BANKING TERMS IN THAI and looking em up in a Thai-Engl dictionary when a) my thai typing skills are at -5 words per minute and b)HALF OF THE KEYS ARE FADED ON THE KEYBOARDS THERE ergo I have no fricken idea where half of the letters are kjafhjkfh ahahaha OH WELL. So my bank ad analysis will be done at the negative speed of light, I'm sure the P's can deal with it though XDD

AND OH MY GOD YOU DID IT!! AND I AM DOWNLOADING IT AS I TYPE! *PRODS INTERNET CONNECTION TO GO FASTER DAMN EEEEEEEEEEEET*